| on developing the ideologies that precede my music o_o; |
[Nov. 21st, 2009|08:30 am] |
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| | muffler - embrace | ] |
Technological limitations have prevented me from making music. My pc has been in a coma for a while now. I wonder if I should "pull the plug". ha ha.
Naturally, ideas have been coming to me, some already lost while some still waiting to be actualized. Without experimentation with actual music creation, I have been very conceptual, I guess. Thinking of alternatives and plotting a more philosophical approach with how I treat my tracks.
First and foremost, I should utilize the equalizer in my mixing. My knowledge with the subject matter is very informal and self-taught, although I have somewhat come to the conclusion that sound occupies space and that there is very limited space available in the spectrum. Appropriation and distribution is key. Second, that I should have a more dialectic approach, in belief that everything is a product of opposing forces. I shouldn't just create; I must also destroy. My music is nothing without its own negation, and only through it will it find its synthesis.
Well, yea, that's basically it. Thank you for your time. |
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| taking libertarianism seriously |
[Oct. 30th, 2009|08:26 pm] |
Competition brings down price and increases quality.
Based on this premise, I do not support having a TODA or Tricycle Operators and Drivers Association because it creates a monopoly. This is the main reason for the rise of commuting price. If they could allow competing tricycles to freely operate and decide their own prices the quality and worth of commuting would greatly increase.
I think the same goes for Jeepneys and basically all modes of public transportation. Why is there a fixed price? This price fixing is not favorable for the consumer.
Imagine if a group of them would decide to lower price even just a bit, they would definitely have more customers and consumers will always look for them or their group. This will also force their competition (perhaps those who would choose not to lower prices) to provide a better commuting experience for consumers as to compensate the worth for the cost.
I don't get it why people assume that the more regulation and more authority would entail safety and discipline. All it does is create monopolies and bureaucracy. (duh) haha
Anyway, another thing, why do people associate legalization with regulation? (you know what i'm talking about) Why? We think the solution is to tax it? Everything already has tax and people think that allowing bureaucrats to steal more from us would benefit or increase chances for legalization? It makes no sense to me. i mean, i used to believe this to but now i've realized how stupid it is.
Someone pointed out to me that prostitutes in Amsterdam are clean because they're regulated by the government. They have like licenses and shit. Having a license does not make things safer. All it does is feed bureaucracy. The government should always only be our servant and never our master. Their job is to serve not to dictate. okay?
yun lang. |
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| digging for the root of ambition |
[Sep. 23rd, 2009|09:58 am] |
It annoys me when people (specially relatives) ask me "what do you want to be?" or "what will you be after you graduate?"
From what I've learned, I think we use the word "be" when there's no actual action being done but somehow our logic tells us that we are in need of a verb. It also denotes existence."to be" is just such a powerful combination of words.
There are expected answers to these questions. For example, you can't just say "I want to be a lake or an ocean" because it is expected that human beings don't all of a sudden become bodies of water. Also, you can't say something like "I want or would want to be a judge in Iron Chef." People would likely laugh at such a statement. It would be considered naive and stupid.
Like I said, there are expected answers. These kinds of questions are obviously career related and there are prescribed options. They might want some sort of answer that shows specialty or expertise in a certain field: engineering, medicine, law, architecture, information technology, and many others.
Some people are so sure of their answers. For example, I sometimes hear "I've always wanted to be in advertising". The person will then turn this "want to be" into a passion. The person will blog about it, tell all his/her friends and relatives, read about it and learn all the history and trivia, until finally everyone around this person will accept that this person wants to be in advertising.
In our time and generation, our existence or our act of 'be'-ing revolves around the concept of work or career. We have turned everything into work, even learning or art or travel. I don't really consider this a bad thing. An individual has the right to earn from his skill or talent and to sell or trade one's own effort and time.
I find it so weird how some people are so sure of what they want to be. I thought I was sure. There were so many things I wanted to be, most especially in my younger years. So far, I am just so unsure and discontented with the prescribed options. I don't think knowing and being sure of what you want to be would necessarily mean success anyway.
Really, this question of "what you want to be?" almost makes no sense. But in order to survive and compete for the scarce resources of this world, we are compelled to pick from the choices and give an answer. c'est la vie. |
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| The unusual lobbyist |
[Sep. 9th, 2009|09:37 pm] |
Noynoy Aquino is getting so much exposure in the media which he and his party mates are using as a free campaign. A while ago I heard a reporter say that his platform is "itaguyod ang edukasyon" and "labanan ang katiwalian". Wow. Of course. Just like every other candidate's "platform".
I've been scouting through the websites of some of the presidentiables and haven't really found any concrete plans; just a bunch of cliche and staple lines that are supposedly platforms. Basically I haven't seen a single candidate who is for limited government. They all seemingly just want to increase bureaucracy, more government, and more spending. Apparently this is how they propose to solve our problems. Their only real difference from one another is how they would choose to spend more and how to inflate bureaucracy.
So far, the only one thing I found that I liked is a a bill filed by senator Jamby Madrigal enforcing the implementation of the bill of rights and how the Human Security Act might be challenging our rights and liberties. I'm not a lawyer or whatever but that's how I interpreted the bill. But then, she doesn't really appeal to me as a leader. She just doesn't suit the Filipino taste and I doubt she can win, in my biased and unsubstantial opinion. But at least that bill I found in her website gave me time to rethink my opinions about her. Hopefully she's not one of those legislators who just hires people to draft bills from them.
I don't like Bayani Fernando. He brags of acheiving so much for Metro Manila. My problem with him is that he has authoritarian tendencies. Most would say that perhaps this is what we need, someone who will discipline our people. But there is more to the executive branch than fixing roads and moving sidewalk vendors. The president will need experience in foreign relations and economics and legislation. Plus, he or she would also need to solve conflicts in Mindanao and many other issues. MMDA traffic enforcers are so corrupt and easily bribed. I know a part of this mistake is with the people but come on. If he can't take care of corruption in his department then what more with our country?
Noli De Castro seems so innocent in his silent rule over his office. We didn't really hear much from him. No controversies or whatever. His people did a good job in keeping in low profile but really he is Gloria's biggest ally. I'm scared he actually might have a chance in winning.
Erap is crazy. But he is rich and has a lot of influence. It's not that he can't win it's more of he shouldn't win.
Binay has this interesting healthcare program in Makati. My aunt's driver's wife gave birth in Makati Med for free. Yes apparently for free. My sentiments and opinions about healthcare is very unstable. I'm just concerned on how this kind of policy making and implementation would work on a national level.
Chiz is young, charismatic, and intelligent. He has qualities of a good leader but he does not seem to represent the ideologies I advocate. As I have said, they are all for bigger government.
We need a candidate with concrete plans and not just those staple lines we hear every election. We need their voting records in legislation (is it possible to aquire them?). We need to know what kind of ideology they advocate and what kind of policies they will be enforcing.
I am a registered voter (with no ID o_o;) looking for candidate who will defend our liberties, limit the powers of authority, and minimize government as much as possible. I will survey and research more about the candidates and perhaps find someone. I was actually planning to make some sort of political blog and maybe be able to create some sort of sample ballot before the 2010 elections that will have all the people I will vote for. Maybe it could help those of you who are undecided and lazy to research (I sort of feel the same way though). And yes, a political blog would be a more productive way of using my time and internet.
I apologize for any typos, I'm updating from my phone. |
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| The lava lamp is non-toxic but it can get very hot |
[Sep. 3rd, 2009|09:06 pm] |
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| | HuntHer - Fresh and Homemade | ] |
The coffee in this place is spiked. I knew it was too bitter for its own right. My tired hands are definitely starting to shake. The tiny cracks on the marble wall are starting to take shapes and forms; scary memories of ghosts and ghouls. The murmurs of all the people all around me are starting to get louder and louder. There is an old and bearded man sitting by the table beside me wearing thick glasses and a gray coat smoking a pipe full of fiction and whatnot. They call this place Acid Jazz.
"Would you care to spare some beats, sir, in exchange for some of our analog dreams?" The waiter asked as he pointed out an array of delectable knobs and springs.
"I think I might be coming down with the flu," I replied. There is nothing, in my opinion, more excusable than that.
Across from the bar was the avant-garde section filled with swirling neon lights and some favorable chairs and tables with very pleasing and wonderful designs. This place is only as political as it can get. A group of elitists and eccentric personalities gathered here debating meaning and art. Indeed, art is a luxury only available to a select few. You are either already well-off or you will starve. The case here is a colorful bunch, only the colors are dark and to an extent very modern. For some, art is a tool to spread ideology or bring down the monstrosity of tyranny. These people considered themselves revolutionaries.
I struggled along my altered state of mind trying to comprehend the vibrant colors of the lights and the euphoric sound of the downtempo. The metallic ground is moving but everything is seemingly to be in its rightful place. I rub my head a couple of times and try to relax. I open my eyes as wide as I can but nothing has changed. In my mind, I was still contemplating upon the taste of purple. Little did I know that in a few moments, everything would taste of this color.
"For every action there is an opposite and equal reaction--this is the self-correcting mechanism of the universe that sustains balance," says the bearded man.
I squinted my eyes and looked at him and in the midst of my intoxication coughed out a question, "Where is he?"
"You will find Korsakoff in Preobrazhenski," he replied as he exhaled some smoke, "you will leave in 3 days."
Everything is connected.
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| procrastinating and sleepless |
[Aug. 16th, 2009|07:35 pm] |
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| | a rocket to the moon - fear of flying | ] |
I went to the casino for the first time today. I won 600 pesos. It was a really fun experience.
It makes no sense to me why gambling in our country is regulated and monopolized by a select few. Games such as jueteng, although remains rampant, is illegal. While others like lottery or raffles or bingo is legal.
Gambling is pretty much a part of our daily lives. It is deeply rooted in our history and culture. Gambling is a form of trading. It is no different from investments or any other perks of our capitalist system. To spend what we earned however it pleases us, for as long as it does not interfere with the liberties of others. Gambling is a game just like any other.
It seems to me that the only real role of the government is to choose those acts that are acceptable and those that are not.
Some say gambling destroys lives. But it is very apparent that no one is forced to gamble. You are merely given a choice. No one has the right to deprive us of this choice. To regulate gambling is against the interests of a free society. Freely legalize and deregulate gambling now. o_o; |
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| Happy birthday, Adi. |
[Jul. 14th, 2009|05:56 am] |
There was once a boy who hated the roof
for it did not allow his girl to see the stars
and so he argued and struggled
but the roof fought back hard
and so one day he promises
to douse it in vodka
and burn it to ashes
so they can lie all night
watching the stars until the sun comes up
Happy birthday adi =)
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| something i haven't uttered in the longest time |
[Jun. 18th, 2009|08:53 pm] |
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| | telefon tel aviv - what it was will never again | ] |
fire cannot arise without the presence of air.
in the same manner, without gas, i can't go anywhere.
these are initial conditions. Rules and laws that govern our world. If you take out one variable, everything will change. All state of affairs are dictated by the environment.
i am only here now because this is where i have to be. All roads lead here. |
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| junior-a intrams dance |
[Jun. 14th, 2009|11:35 pm] |
video nung sayaw nung 3rd year. haha. third place yata to or second. i dont remember. di ko alam sino yung nag shoot nito. nakuha ko lang yung video kay zo. astig! haha |
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| earth |
[May. 14th, 2009|02:28 am] |
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| | she and him - why do you let me stay here? | ] |
Ladies and gentlemen, i present to you, the greatest print ad in the Universe:
picture c/o zo.
napakagaling! astig! idol! panalo! gusto ko tuloy mag burger king.
hmm.. i got my license today. this is very significant. if a flap of a butterfly's wings could ultimately change weather patterns...
i love how my license expires on 2012. there's a chance wont need it by then haha |
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| Diversion Road |
[May. 12th, 2009|11:06 am] |
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| | filter - take a picture | ] |
As far as i could remember, it was my first time to set foot in Quezon, as in my whole life. i went there perhaps, as a child, or a past life maybe. i just felt that every moment there was a reminder -- this "i've been here before" feeling at the back of my head.
It's also interesting how on the same night i got home from Quezon, i was drawn to an article by Manuel L. Quezon III. He was talking about how books and computers are good for the people and the growth of our nation and therefore shouldn't be taxed. The bureaucrats in Customs seem to think otherwise. They seem to believe they have the power to choose what is educational and what is not. The bottom line is, cheaper books and computers would be beneficial to our nation. What they're doing has no purpose except to preserve bureaucracy and continue their legalized form of theft.
i hate taxation of all kinds. It is legal plunder. Our ancestors survived for many years without this concept introduced to us by the colonists. The first revolts against the Spaniards, were in fact, deeply rooted on ideals against taxation and monopoly. i believe that most, if not all, of taxation should be abolished. Most especially in domestic travel. It is insane to charge so much for us to travel around the place we consider our home land. It is insane.
i saw a mirage on the way to the beach. A false source of life; an illusion of safety alluring me. Like the horizon, on what seems to be the edge of the ocean, fooling humanity for centuries, making us think that the world is flat. These illusions deceive us. Making us think something is there when there is nothing. Faith. i feel like a hypocrite, arguing against the irrationality of faith, as i become just as they are -- believing in something i can't even define, hoping that there is more than what i can prove to be real. i am chasing a ghost.
One of my friends were explaining how it takes a thousand years before corals could regenerate or form. All for humans to destroy them. It all seems so irrational and crazy, to destroy something that's once in a lifetime. But the real ethical dilemma is when you are there on the spot, instead of just thinking about what's right and wrong. I mean, wouldn't you be willing to destroy corals if it would be able to feed your starving children? or send them to school or buy them clothes? We try to think that they don't know any better but the truth is neither do we.
The ocean can really make me very reflective. i love exploring obscure and secret places. and i love how i have friends who do too. We've already explored a lot in Laguna. i really like to think that Quezon is next. There's just something about Quezon that's calling me. Tara!
http://multiplyniharry.multiply.com/photos/album/33/Sariaya_Quezon |
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| movement |
[May. 5th, 2009|05:22 am] |
I've never actually heard of or been exposed to the concept of contemporary ballet. I am just absolutely dumbfounded and also ashamed of how I've never really been fond of dancing, you know, the serious kind. To a certain extent, I actually disliked it, or even hated it. I mean, there is a great deal of talent and skill needed in dancing, I recognize that, but it's just that stuff like Souljah Boy or that shorty got low song that make me lose interest in it. I do understand it's my mistake for reducing the concept of dance to a bunch of girls shaking their asses or intermission groups moving around to the beat of mainstream songs. Once again, I must say that I do recognize the talent and time and effort needed create steps and be synchronized and stuff like that. I just feel that a lot of the modern dance I'm being exposed to is lacking in authenticity. It is somewhat too robotic or electronic, plastic, and dictated by media. As if dancing has become pure form and no more essence.
That is where the kid in the video opened my eyes to dancing as a pure and unpretentious form of expression. It is just brilliant and profound. I feel that there's so much media conditioning in me that I must get rid of. Ideas that spread so much hatred and pretentiousness and false cultures, all for profit. We are taught was is "cool" and what is not, what is beautiful and what is not, what to wear or eat even how to behave and how to interact. It is disgusting and I am ashamed of myself and most of us.
The kid in the video is an epitome of one who does what he loves to do and doesn't give a fuck about what people think. I've been looking up Experessionism and I am compelled to just express with probably my writing or music or maybe photography or whatever. I don't know. I feel that I've been too influenced by what's outside that I've lost the ability to listen to what's inside. I don't know, I was just so moved by the performance in the video.
I remember for my theater class we went on this sort of festival thing where we participated and learned about Cordilliera ethnic dance. I just remembered. I think dancing is very innate to humans.
Me and a few friends started this movement called Appreciationism, where you bring something(like a film or whatever) that no one in the group has ever seen. I feel that in order to distinguish between what is art and what is not, we shouldn't just rely on what the media or society dictates, we must search for ourselves. We must expose and saturate ourselves to as much art as we can and we must teach ourselves to appreciate. Sadly, as of now, it remains invite-only. This is to prevent nuisances or something. And of course to prevent the chosen venue to be too crowded. I know it sounds so elitist or something but hey there are so many factors and constraints involved. I'll talk to them soon about making a blog or something where we can possibly post updates on what we've been watching, the contributors, and maybe even reviews.
I want to watch contemporary ballet live.
I should really get some sleep. |
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| earth |
[Apr. 21st, 2009|04:29 pm] |
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| | brandon kane - who's lovin you | ] |
video c/o yani
1. Went to Hidalgo to have my camera fixed just so i could eventually break it the same night (napakagaling). I finished a roll of expired film though, hopefully it survives. if it does, i will post the pictures soon.
2. Every moment is a unique experience that we have to learn to appreciate more. There are so many things that are taken for granted. Went around so many places that I've never been to before and yet they are not that far. we ended up playing in this bar in marikina (i forgot the name/don't know how to spell it). we got our name from elder scrolls iv oblivion. tapos yun kahit sobrang amats nag biglaan na live performance. haha. cover ng last time.
3. i love traveling by train. kahit minsan siksikan ok lang. it reminds me of something i wrote for this scriptwriting class i had before. i felt like my character was somewhere there in the crowd. im planning this ultimate photo trip in my head. you go down on every station and take a picture of something you think is special in that place or something. one for every station. pero sa labas. as in sa lugar. astig yun. there was this one station, doroteo jose yata, from the bridge makikita mo yung manila city jail. so mga ganun na bagay. haha.
4. i swallowed 8 small spiders today. or maybe 9, i don't really remember. then i started hallucinating. de loko lang. i think i didn't fail anything this term. so yun.
bakit kaya walang tigil sa pagiyak ang langit? |
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| you can't predict the weather |
[Apr. 18th, 2009|05:16 pm] |
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i missed my desktop. so i recorded. have been thinking of recording this song for a while now. music is my therapy.
who wants to go somewhere? or maybe anywhere... or just hang out. whatever wherever whenever tara ngayon na ayus astig apir!
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| southern cross |
[Apr. 16th, 2009|09:32 pm] |
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| | playradioplay! - decipher reflections from reality | ] |
The most beautiful things in life are short-lived. The reason they are beautiful is because they are temporary. Like a comet that passes only once in a lifetime, we savor and appreciate every single moment for it may be the last. And to be given the opportunity to be there and experience, fills us with so much gratitude, as if there is nothing more to ask for. We realize that others would gladly trade everything just to be in that moment. We are blessed yet undeserving. As the end approaches, we say goodbye to that which is beautiful, and all that is left are memories. All we are left to do is to let go. Like a split-second dream. It is bittersweet.
I woke up today and received a text saying that I have to go home, to which I curiously replied:
"Where is my home?" |
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| hello |
[Apr. 10th, 2009|12:08 pm] |
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| | Leonid Rudenko - Summerfish (Matakena 2009 Remix) | ] |
minsan, sa buhay, earphones lang ang karamay. maraming salamat sa musika.
=) |
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| This is probably the most important entry to ever be posted in this journal |
[Mar. 28th, 2009|01:58 am] |
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| | they might be giants - am i awake | ] |
The citizens around me went up and down the escalator, almost like zombies, as if I was stuck inside a Terry Gilliam film. Everyone around me socializing and indulging in conversations of which all I could hear were murmurs. To my left was a silly man wearing a yellow tie humming familiar tunes, and to my right, a tall tin-man that had a pocket book for a belly. This seemed to be a very industrial gala, very modern and electronic. We were being served adrenochrome mixed with champagne in fancy glasses along-side green slimy slugs in toothpicks, which I dare not touch. It has been five minutes since I told myself that this was insane. Someone has to put a stop to whoever is feeding this madness.
I excused myself from the tin-man who was telling me about his ideas on business cycles and market structures. Had I continued to listen I would probably have died, I hear two men have already died that night because of being in the same situation. And so I rushed, faster than the tin man could have blinked and walked as far as I could.
The Russian vegans (a prominent group who controlled organized crime) seemed to be laid back and non-murderous at the time so I join their company. One of them, Vladimir Ilyich, approached me and gave me a purple cigar. Then there it was, striking me right in the face. It was all making so much sense. I've finally found a connection between Korsakoff and B12 deficiency. I never thought it would be the vegans who would enlighten me about this certain topic. I closed my eyes then opened them once more, and there I was in lying in a different place, a dark gray room with bright lights staring right at me, and voices and beeps. Beside me, was the man with the yellow tie once more, only this time he wasn't feeling silly, not a bit. I did not know who he was but somehow I felt compelled to ask him one question:
"Who is sergei korsakoff?"
The man with the yellow tie nodded then said, "I have been expecting you, follow me..." |
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